Sunday, February 17, 2013

Five Minutes of Practice Healed My Broken Heart

Five Minutes ...

It only took five minutes the first time I sat quietly, back straight, legs crossed on a black, velvet pillow that I placed on the floor.  I started with three deep, cleansing breaths.  I continued to focus on my breath as I was told.  I counted in and out, in and out until I got to twenty and then began again.  My life as I knew it had ended.  A nineteen year marriage had diminished into lawyers, insults, and fear.  I feared beginning life again after 40.  I feared not being able to take care of myself and my children.  I feared the anger, hurt, and betrayal that I felt would never fully heal.   

After five minutes on that first day, I was a little calmer.  After working my way up to ten, fifteen and then twenty minutes in the coming months, I felt a deeper sense of calm and was centered and grounded for the entire day.  A daily prayer was added along with yoga stretches, journaling and visioning.  After a year on my velvet pillow twice a day now, my fears dissolved and I was now dreaming again, joyous and filled with compassion for both myself and my former spouse.  My heart had healed. 

My daily practice has morphed into a lifestyle.  My twenty to forty minutes twice a day on a now tattered pillow is the soul food that sustains me.  I can't imagine beginning or ending my day in any other way.

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